Knowing Him Daily

06.May.2026

There comes a moment when you stop functioning from your story and start actually looking beyond it.

You no longer recall it with shame, not with a need to fix anything, just with honest eyes and enough distance to finally see what was already there. That moment came for me slowly, the way the dawn comes, not all at once but in degrees, a little more light, a little more clarity, until suddenly you can see the whole landscape.

What I saw surprised me.

Beneath the poor  survival patterns, the smallness and beneath the girl who made herself as invisible as she could trying not to upset anyone, there was someone else entirely. She had been there the whole time, in the background and completely intact, waiting for enough safety to surface. The entrepreneur. The mother. The practitioner and the writer and the one who sees what others haven’t seen yet. None of that was built by better circumstances. It was already there, already woven in, already known by God before I took my first breath.

For You formed my inward parts, David wrote in Psalm 139:13-14, You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Fearfully and wonderfully made, not fearfully and wonderfully adapted. The design was always there beneath everything I had layered over it to survive.

Aaron Shust captures this moment for me better than I can. He sings, break me into who you want me to be, and that’s exactly what this is. Not a breaking down but a breaking open, God carefully and deliberately dismantling what was never really me to reveal what always was.

That’s not a painful process when you understand what’s happening. It’s actually the most freeing thing you will ever experience. Ask me how I know.

You are not your survival techniques. You are not the role you didn’t choose. You are not the adaptations you built to get you through. You are intrinsically what and who God designed before any of that existed, and He has been faithfully, patiently preserving that person through every single season of your life.

She was always there in me, and that person is in you awaiting discovery. 

If you’ve never invited Jesus into your heart, today is the day. Pray this:

Dear Heavenly Father, 

Thank You for sending Jesus to die on the Cross just for me. I admit that I have sinned, and I repent. I ask You to forgive me. I believe that He died and rose again. Right now, I make Him the Lord of my life. Fill me with Your Holy Spirit. My sins are washed away, my past is forgiven, and my future is bright. Help me to live like the beloved that I already am in Christ. Thank you for saving me. 

In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Make today count and see you tomorrow.